I´m leaving...

[junkerin]

... the hospital today.

The good news are all the tissue the removed was healty, no trace of cancer. And my new silikon breast looks and feels like eigthteen. :-)

The Doctors don´t recommend a radiation therapy anymore ("you don´t need it") but still recommend on the chemotherapy (wich I still don´t want).

Further more they recommend me to a study at the Collone University were they reserce the breast cancer inheritage (sorry probely bad english). And since the cancer has hormon receptors the recommend a anti hormon therapy.

I´m still debating with my self about the chemotherapy and even the doctors have to admit that the procentage of recovering for me will increase with chemotherapy only by 1 - 3%. But since it increases they are moraly suppose to recommend it.

So go figgure your self...

It is a hard discission to make.

Comments

Re: Wonderful! :D

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I can't tell you guys ofent engouth how much I love all the help, comments and other stuff you send to me. Thank you

[reggie11.livejournal.com]

You should get online and see if you can find some cancer forums. That way you can talk to others that have been in the same position and find out what decisions they made, and why they made them. It will give you a better place to start from to make the right choice for yourself.

I found the health forums for my illnesses were fabulous. First of all, they were all so incredibly supportive, and secondly, they had information from the patient's point of view which made so much difference. Even my doctor said that he knew more about the medical side, but the people out there living through these things have the experience that a doctor will never have.

I'm SO pleased you got a good result! And yay for perky boobs!!

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

There is a cancer group meeting every thursday... I was thinking about going there.

[tuckercat2.livejournal.com]

Go! Cancer is easier to deal with when you can talk to others honestly and freely. I had cancer. On hormone therapy now, which actually means no hormones.

There isn't any one way to act or be brave or scared. You are you and you are dealing with a life changing illness. You need to be what ever you are feeling at the moment. Living is winning. Whatever it takes to get you there. I cried, acted brave and spent nights awake wondering.. It's all good. It what human do. HUGS!!! Hang in there!

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

There are good days and bad days and everything in between. Today is a good day my Doc gave her okay on my health.

For me is my writing part of my copping mechanism :-)

[dont-hate-me01.livejournal.com]

Happy to hear you've been discharged from hospital! You have a tough decision in front of you, but in the end you'll do what is best for you.

Still keeping you in my thoughts!

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I will mail to you later after I finished your BB

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

I must admit to being jealous of the 18yr old boobies :P

I can't stop thinking about your predicament, just trust your instincts. When I was 25 I had stage2 lymphoma, I had surgery, did chemo and radiation both. I quit my chemo half way thru. I could NOT do it anymore. On one hand 18yrs later I'm still here, on the other hand my body was permantly damaged in ways I know and ways I'm sure I can't begin to. As a mother of a young child I would risk that all over again and hit it aggressively with everything they've got. As a mom of a 19yr old I would have different feelings about it if it were to present itself again. I can tell you with absolute certaintly that at 60yrs old I WON'T be sitting in a chemotherapy chair!

Good luck in making this very tough decission. My heart is with you.

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

I am a mother of two littel kids (7 and 9) and I can´t avoid thinking what I´ll let them witness during the chemotherapy. Half a year is quite a long time for a child.

And off course I thought about that it would be the worste if I couldn´t see them grow up.

You said: "As a mother of a young child I would risk that all over again and hit it aggressively with everything they've got." and I´m thinking doese it makes me a coward if I want to avoid a chemo because I think it isn´t nesseary and the hormon treatment should be engouth?

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

NO!! my gosh, you are NOT a coward. You are an informed person making a decision. Like I said, against my doctors wishes I quit chemo halfway thru. I recently ranted on some poor souls journal my feelings on cancer. I do not feel empowered or strong because I conquered cancer, I don't want to wear a pretty ribbon or teeshirt and run for the cure while people cheer me on. Cancer is a terrible thing, it is a serial killer, it chooses indiscriminently and is vile. You get thru it however you need to, you limp away, you hide from it, and then you wait for it to appear at your door again like a stalker.

Until you are in the midst of it, you just don't know. Chemo is terrible, radiation is terrible, cancer is terrible. You have a choice not to do it, I would not do it. If even one doctor looked at me and said, nah, you don't need chemo, do "this", I would jump on that train so fast. Quality of life is an important thing!

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It is such a hard decision to make...

[herminekurotowa.livejournal.com]

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

:-)

[cappy712.livejournal.com]

Keeping you in my prayers. I pray for you to have a quick recovery and make clear decisions for you.

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Thank you, it is a hard decision to make.

[tipsy-kitty.livejournal.com]

So glad to hear that you are home! It's so much easier to rest and recover in your own space. I can't offer advice on whether to undergo chemo again or not, but I hope you come to a decision that you're content with.

Also, for you, I'm trying to fast-track my next chapter of Compulsory Propagation, though it might be mostly PWP ;)

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Well thank you for writing CP! The only thing I managed to write was a child story about a puping headghog in german :-) !

It is a hard choice to make, one that keeps me awake in the middle of the nigth. I dont expect a advise just understanding for the choice I will make

[tipsy-kitty.livejournal.com]

Well, I know whatever you choose, those who know and love you will understand that you didn't approach the decision lightly.

*hugs*

[tuckercat2.livejournal.com]

I had breast cancer 18 mos. ago. I was lucky that mine was caught very early and with a double mastectomy and reconstructive surgery I am cancer free at this time. I am on an anti-hormone therapy and have been for 16 mos.

I am sorry you had to go through this. I hope you are doing well, my thought are with you.

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

In two month I have my first anaversety and today I have another check up at my doctor. I wonder if I can ever go there without being afraid.

I'm now also on anti hormons.

Thank for your mail