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Today I was with the kids at the movies we saw "Monster Truck" (please don´t judge they are 10 and 11).

But that was when I first saw Jared´s younger doppelganger Lukas Till looks like a younger version of Jared!

The movie was like "Sam and the tentakel monster" for me!


Dec. 12th, 2016 02:44 pm
junkerin: (J2 + me)
Help these two guys just showed up!

With a the tree.

And now they are decorating!

What I´m suppouse to do?!

junkerin: (J2 + me)
So yesterday it rained all day!

It was really ugly weather but than I looked in my garden and saw Mr. and Mrs. Duck taking a shower and having a bath.

junkerin: (J2 + me)
Okay I have a problem - again - with the tags at kink meme and AO3.

I´m careful not to put up too much tags because I think they spoil so much, but on the other side I don´t want to upset people. On one side I want my stories to be surprising and interesting but than I get complains about ruining the prompt (not to meantion some of the comments are really mean).

I like to fill kink meme sometimes I get really good ideas for stories but now I´m tinking about not filling them anymore...

Going to

Nov. 30th, 2015 09:47 am
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the clinic to get my gene test results.

They checked if I got a form of breast cancer that is genetically.

Well, it´s only a 10% chance that my cancer is genetic but I´m still nervous.

On the good side I meet with [livejournal.com profile] herminekurotowa afterwards and we go the the
christmas market.
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You think that´s impossible? Well I watched the last four episodes in a row.

I was lucky since my old Laptop decided to actully work again and my family left me alone to enjoy it!

The fun part is when I watch all by myself I´m not influenced by the opinon of others.
Am I the only one who thought Death changed the way of the Scythe? Because Dean seemed way to surprised. And off course Death is not dead. You can´t kill Death!

I was impressed with Jared preformance and I had to wounder if he mentaly exhausted himself playing Sam.

On the bright side I wrote two pages of my BB. Finally the boys are doing what I want them to do!

Real life

May. 7th, 2015 09:32 am
junkerin: (J2 + me)
I finally watch SPN!

I realy start to hate my old Laptop! Watching "book of the damned" took me over an hour! Thank god "The weather project" streamed better and I was able to enjoy it more!

So I´m only two episodes behind and maybe my laptop is in a good mood and let me watch more tonight.

On tuesday my hubby and I had 11th wedding anniversary and we went to the movie and watched "The Avengers". I liked the movie but it was in 3D and that was so wearisome to watch.
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I just mailed my first draft for this year BB!

So far it´s 32.291 words and now I just have to finish the "rest" of the story.

I know the draft works as a story but there are some things I still like to tell and now I have time to figure them out.

And maybe just maybe the J3 can have some fun together.

BB trouble

Apr. 23rd, 2015 06:23 pm
junkerin: (J2 + me)
More than 30.000 words and all Jensen managed was to give Jared one kiss. My story sucks! I'm stuck and I still don't know is it J2 or J3!
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.... okay so this is nothing new to you but for me. :-)

I´m about to finish my RevBB and now the sign up for the BB2015 has started.

I still don´t know if I should participade are the stories I´m working on long (and good) enought for a BB?

Hopefully I see clearer when I´m finished with my RevBB.
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I don´t know...

I´m working on my RevBB and there is still so much to tell...

I´m still waiting for my gift from my secret Santa (and waiting and waiting and not bitching)

So should I sign up for BB 2015? The story "Envy" of last year is still my greatest pride and than what should I write more of "Envy"? Or should I write something new or nothing at all? There are so many stories unfinished on my data stick and some of them would like to get finished some day.

And I found I like to write again sooo.... I don´t know.
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A friend of me came out.

Well it wasn´t a surpriese to me. Ever since he found Luke hotter than Leia I have suspected something like that.

But here is the sad part: he came out to his parents. Obvious his brother knew since he lived together with his boyfriend for quite a while. I heard something as close to four years.

How unsure and affraid must he have been to delay his outing for so long!

Well I happy that he told.
junkerin: (J2 + me)
... the hospital today.

The good news are all the tissue the removed was healty, no trace of cancer. And my new silikon breast looks and feels like eigthteen. :-)

The Doctors don´t recommend a radiation therapy anymore ("you don´t need it") but still recommend on the chemotherapy (wich I still don´t want).

Further more they recommend me to a study at the Collone University were they reserce the breast cancer inheritage (sorry probely bad english). And since the cancer has hormon receptors the recommend a anti hormon therapy.

I´m still debating with my self about the chemotherapy and even the doctors have to admit that the procentage of recovering for me will increase with chemotherapy only by 1 - 3%. But since it increases they are moraly suppose to recommend it.

So go figgure your self...

It is a hard discission to make.
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Okay Okay it maybe shouldn´t come as a surpries but the SPN family is really caring about each other.

I had a awful day the doctor needed three tries to get the needel in my vein. The other weekend doctor is so much for the chemotherapie and the there is this beautiful october day outside and I´m stuck in here.

But then I got those wonderful get well wishes and they are all wellcome and needed! My parents showed up together with my little girl and later my hubby and I went (not allowed!) on a walk to the next door cemetary. This is the old town cemetary and if the would film SN in Germany it could really be a good location.

So now I´m back in my hospital room (since today I´m all to myself) I just had my last antibotica transfusion and hopefully the will take out the (I don´t know right english word) drainage out tomorrow.

I would like to tell you what the Professor B. told me about my futer treatment. Since my tumor got hormon receptors I can and I will get a hormon treatment. Because I now have an silicon implant I need to have a radiation (again I´m not sure that this is the right english word) for an even better prognosis (1-2% better) they would like to give me a chemotherapy.

My mother had breast cancer twice (!) and I know how hard the chemo is on the body. So I´m really thinking hard what to do next.

I will talk to some other doctors and will hopefully find the right way for myself.

Thank you for your great support. I hope I answered all the mails I got.
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Bad news: I´m going back into the hospital on October the 1st or 6th and have another operation :-(
and now I know how much that hurts....

Good news: I´m home again. The wound still hurts but it is getting better. The lymph was cancer free and they do a uPai/PAI test to figure out if I need a chemotherapy.

So guys keep you fingers crossed or Daumen drücken or what ever you guys do to wish luck :-)

Just an update:
I´ll go back into the hospital on october the 15th. Operation is one day later. Still no news on the uPai/PAI test.
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The good news are: I have the results

The bad news are: I´ll go to the hospital next wednesday and have an operation on thursday.

Beeing sick sucks!


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