I´m not as crazy as you think

Help these two guys just showed up!

With a the tree.

And now they are decorating!

What I´m suppouse to do?!

Okay I have a problem - again - with the tags at kink meme and AO3.

I´m careful not to put up too much tags because I think they spoil so much, but on the other side I don´t want to upset people. On one side I want my stories to be surprising and interesting but than I get complains about ruining the prompt (not to meantion some of the comments are really mean).

I like to fill kink meme sometimes I get really good ideas for stories but now I´m tinking about not filling them anymore...

You think that´s impossible? Well I watched the last four episodes in a row.

I was lucky since my old Laptop decided to actully work again and my family left me alone to enjoy it!

The fun part is when I watch all by myself I´m not influenced by the opinon of others.
Am I the only one who thought Death changed the way of the Scythe? Because Dean seemed way to surprised. And off course Death is not dead. You can´t kill Death!

I was impressed with Jared preformance and I had to wounder if he mentaly exhausted himself playing Sam.

On the bright side I wrote two pages of my BB. Finally the boys are doing what I want them to do!

I just mailed my first draft for this year BB!

So far it´s 32.291 words and now I just have to finish the "rest" of the story.

I know the draft works as a story but there are some things I still like to tell and now I have time to figure them out.

And maybe just maybe the J3 can have some fun together.

.... okay so this is nothing new to you but for me. :-)

I´m about to finish my RevBB and now the sign up for the BB2015 has started.

I still don´t know if I should participade are the stories I´m working on long (and good) enought for a BB?

Hopefully I see clearer when I´m finished with my RevBB.

A friend of me came out.

Well it wasn´t a surpriese to me. Ever since he found Luke hotter than Leia I have suspected something like that.

But here is the sad part: he came out to his parents. Obvious his brother knew since he lived together with his boyfriend for quite a while. I heard something as close to four years.

How unsure and affraid must he have been to delay his outing for so long!

Well I happy that he told.

Okay Okay it maybe shouldn´t come as a surpries but the SPN family is really caring about each other.

I had a awful day the doctor needed three tries to get the needel in my vein. The other weekend doctor is so much for the chemotherapie and the there is this beautiful october day outside and I´m stuck in here.

But then I got those wonderful get well wishes and they are all wellcome and needed! My parents showed up together with my little girl and later my hubby and I went (not allowed!) on a walk to the next door cemetary. This is the old town cemetary and if the would film SN in Germany it could really be a good location.

So now I´m back in my hospital room (since today I´m all to myself) I just had my last antibotica transfusion and hopefully the will take out the (I don´t know right english word) drainage out tomorrow.

I would like to tell you what the Professor B. told me about my futer treatment. Since my tumor got hormon receptors I can and I will get a hormon treatment. Because I now have an silicon implant I need to have a radiation (again I´m not sure that this is the right english word) for an even better prognosis (1-2% better) they would like to give me a chemotherapy.

My mother had breast cancer twice (!) and I know how hard the chemo is on the body. So I´m really thinking hard what to do next.

I will talk to some other doctors and will hopefully find the right way for myself.

Thank you for your great support. I hope I answered all the mails I got.

The good news are: I have the results

The bad news are: I´ll go to the hospital next wednesday and have an operation on thursday.

Beeing sick sucks!