I´m leaving...

[junkerin]

... the hospital today.

The good news are all the tissue the removed was healty, no trace of cancer. And my new silikon breast looks and feels like eigthteen. :-)

The Doctors don´t recommend a radiation therapy anymore ("you don´t need it") but still recommend on the chemotherapy (wich I still don´t want).

Further more they recommend me to a study at the Collone University were they reserce the breast cancer inheritage (sorry probely bad english). And since the cancer has hormon receptors the recommend a anti hormon therapy.

I´m still debating with my self about the chemotherapy and even the doctors have to admit that the procentage of recovering for me will increase with chemotherapy only by 1 - 3%. But since it increases they are moraly suppose to recommend it.

So go figgure your self...

It is a hard discission to make.

Comments

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

I am a mother of two littel kids (7 and 9) and I can´t avoid thinking what I´ll let them witness during the chemotherapy. Half a year is quite a long time for a child.

And off course I thought about that it would be the worste if I couldn´t see them grow up.

You said: "As a mother of a young child I would risk that all over again and hit it aggressively with everything they've got." and I´m thinking doese it makes me a coward if I want to avoid a chemo because I think it isn´t nesseary and the hormon treatment should be engouth?

[meesasometimes.livejournal.com]

NO!! my gosh, you are NOT a coward. You are an informed person making a decision. Like I said, against my doctors wishes I quit chemo halfway thru. I recently ranted on some poor souls journal my feelings on cancer. I do not feel empowered or strong because I conquered cancer, I don't want to wear a pretty ribbon or teeshirt and run for the cure while people cheer me on. Cancer is a terrible thing, it is a serial killer, it chooses indiscriminently and is vile. You get thru it however you need to, you limp away, you hide from it, and then you wait for it to appear at your door again like a stalker.

Until you are in the midst of it, you just don't know. Chemo is terrible, radiation is terrible, cancer is terrible. You have a choice not to do it, I would not do it. If even one doctor looked at me and said, nah, you don't need chemo, do "this", I would jump on that train so fast. Quality of life is an important thing!

[junkerin.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It is such a hard decision to make...